"On a Sunday morning sidewalk,
Lord I'm wishing I was stoned.
'Cause there's something 'bout a Sunday
that makes a body feel alone."
Kris Kristofferson
Sundays sometime give me the blues.
It's a beautiful day, and I've been up to see the sun rise. There is the nip of a cool breeze in the air. The remains of Fall leaves, fighting hard to retain their yellows, reds and oranges, contrasted against the Alabama blue sky. This blue sky that songs and poems have been written about.
Thousands will congregate in houses of worship soon. They'll sing, study and pray to a good and merciful God, One who is worthy of their worship, who created all of this I write about and enjoy.
Some will be sincere, and some will only be going through the motions. Acting, pretending--there for reasons only they know. Only God knows which are which.
I will be there too.
But I will be there with a certain heaviness of heart, an unfulfilled longing of some sort. Perhaps a memory of days gone by. Perhaps a yearning for days to come. Perhaps none of the above. Maybe just a defect in the heart or emotions.
Some would say that it should be hard to feel lonely in a crowd--that friends and family and those that surround us should overcome such notions.
But like Kris, there is something about a Sunday that makes this body feel alone.
The damn palm
4 hours ago
a: you are feeling like that because you did not come to Clanton for a visit this weekend. If you had, you would probably have a happiness hangover instead.
ReplyDeleteb:: C.S. Lewis - "If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world."
c: many great writers, artists, and musicians have something like an extra dimension of awareness that enables them to interpret our surroundings in a beautiful way, but can also make the heart heavy. It is just the price you have to pay to bring us good writing :)
4: or maybe you need to visit the presbyterian church
Or maybe you need to visit Mexico. And not go home.
ReplyDeleteI tend to put more stock in Senor Felipe's explanation than Ms. Vinson's detailed analysis.
ReplyDeleteUna problema. No tengo dinero.
I think it's both! You are in need of a long vacation. May God provide a way for that. But seriously a casita next to Felipe in Mexico will soon have sad Sunday afternoons. Why? Because the whole creation and we too are groaning as we wait eagerly for the redemption of our bodies (Romans 8 paraphrase) Our hearts will always long for the order of the newly restored Kingdom, especially on a day like Sunday where worship and family are supposed to bring a kiss of things to come.
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